Meanings

I had my fair share of insults today. I was called a ROBOT, ROBOTIC, A FAKER, A MONSTER, my friendship with a few people being DOUBTFUL, and some other mean words as well. But did those people know what their insults actually meant? My guess is no, because I’m neither of those things…

ROBOT is when you act like a piece of metal and you possess no feelings.
ROBOTIC means you are still half human.
MECHANIC is all about using tools and stuff.
MECHANICAL means routine.
DOUBT is when you lost your trust and faith in someone.
DOUBTFUL is when you put a question mark on your trust towards someone, but you still have a little faith left in them.
TRUST means you have faith in someone even in dark times.
TRUSTING like to trust someone?
MONSTER is when a person is being horrible.
MONSTROSITY means that something tragic or horrible has happened.
FAKE means it’s not the original version.
FAKER it someone who copies everything.
HUMAN is a person who has feelings.
HUMANOID is something that has the appearance resembling a human.

I’m a HUMAN, not a ROBOT. I have feelings, I’m TRUSTING but I am DOUBTFUL sometimes too, especially with people who talk about me behind my back. So next time you say something about me, measure carefully your words…

Hopeless

What does hopeless mean? How does alone feel? Or being lonely? Do you know? I do…
I stand on my bed. No one’s here to love me, to want me, to need me. I feel lonely, alone and hopeless. Yeah, someone can feel all that. No one is around, no one is here. Or at least he isn’t around, he isn’t here like he once was. I feel cold, out of place, worthless, I feel that no one cares. I am scared, scared to find out what I might become with all my problems and mistakes.
Maybe I should go, I should leave myself alone in the dark with no one around, with this feeling of loneliness all around. But there’s nowhere to run when your feeling alone and my heart won’t stop breaking and I know…